Valentine's Day!!

So another Valentine's Day is over. This year was a very good one. No I didn't have a Hot date. I had a great night with some wonderful Sisters In Christ! Susie Q, Rose, Debi and just met Kim. We had mexican and margarita's and went to see The Vow. Which was sadly a let down. Spoiler alert....... Most of the Movie Rachel McAdams charater is spoiled and rude. She reverts back to her former self whom her Husband had never met. We get a short glimps into their marriage and love story and it's a good one! But then there's the accident and she can't remember her husband and it's gut wrenching to watch him try to make her love him again when all she wants to do is live like it's 5 years ago before they met. They divorce and go seprate ways only for her to slow find her way back tp who she was in Chicago and back to him. The movie ends showing the real life couple and their 2 children. She never did get her memory back. For me personaly it just got to close to home for me. Especially the part of trying to get her to love him again and the divorce. Just was so too real for me. My 16 month marriage was of me trying to make him love me and the Old Jason to come back. The Jason I dated and the Jason I was married were two completely different people. I was so in love with the Jason I dated. I was swept off my feet in-love. Really mad crazy love. That guy was the Love of my life. I've been thinking about him a lot lately. Lots of different things have brought up memories. I still love Him.whether or not he was ever real I wont know but I know it was real for me. Commiting my self to Him. Loving Him. Just a shame the fair tale didn't last past the Honeymoon and then turned into a living nightmare. But now I try to remember the Love I had and the bad parts are fading. I'm just being content. I need to live in God's Will and trust. Maybe I will only get that one love in my life. Yes I've loved other Men but I'm talking about that Deep love that you can't wait to marry them and spend your life together. I may never find anyone else to love like that but I'm not going to give up my dream of Motherhood yet. Whether I adopted or be a Foster Mother and yes even if I falled and got pregnant out of wed lock I'd have the baby after what happened the last time. I can't see the future but I will keep hoping for Motherhood!

social networking overload!

Between Facebook, Twitter, Blogspot, Foursquare and Pintrest.... Wow it's an overload! I'm on my phone so much. I'm super tired from my back. I had it adjusted by Dr. Laura, she said my pelvis was tilted. Then I got a massage from my fellow LMT ( licenced massage therapist) who has been giving me free massages for 7 years! I was in a lot of pain. Have no clue how I pulled out my back so bad. It's just been exhausting to my body. * still job hunting. Had the interview with the law firm last Thursday and have another interview tomorrow. Just trying to be still in trust God. Being still seems to be the only way to keep me sane. Being still about finding a job, being single, PCOS and life in general. It's seriously helping. There's a reason why Jesus says not to worry about tomorrow. Because tomorrow is promised. Live for today and the moment. Tomorrow may not be there. Focus on now and not what may or may not be. Someone keeps bringing up retirment to me. That's close to 40 years. How can I think that far ahead. I don't know where I'll be next week. I was unemployed this time 2 years ago so life is ever changing and unpridictable. So live today and let tomorow worry about its self. * I'm just kind of numbed emotionally right now. Finally know who I am but no clue where my life is going. If God has a bigger plan for me than M&C then by all means show it to me. I want to help others but I don't know how and where to start. Maybe thats why most of my adult working life has been c/s jobs. Now I'm rambling. * got some new bras from Lane Bryant. Fit like a glove! They are the Cushion Cut Balconette bar! Amazing hold, fit and lift. If you've got Honkers like mine you know how important that is. * well thats it for now. God Bless!

Northfield, MN!!

Well today was our last full day here. Mary and I head back down to Des Moines tomorrow. Movers are coming on Monday to Mary's old house. She comes back up Wednesday. I don't see my self last very long before I come up again. This feels like home to me as well. I already know my way around town! Way before Mary did! I have been here before in 99. My old friend Holly went to St. Olaf which is one of the 2 colleges in town. The other is Carleton College. This is a very pretty town. 20,007 population. Plenty of places to eat and a Target so We wont be too bored. Also about 40 minutes from the Twin Cities and MOA!! I am in-love! Currently sitting on the Hide-a-bed in the basement! It's Fabulous! 2 Bedrooms and a very big open space for all the kids to play in. Olivia, Logan and Bella are Andy's Kids! Alec is Mary's Son but he's in College at Drake. Mary is uber proud of her one and only Son! Today we finished moving stuff from Andy's old place and then Mary and I took a long nap! Then We went to dinner, Target and Cub Foods! I shopped by self to give them some space! They were so happy talking about their first meal at home Wednesday night so I let them be in the store! Mary has been dreaming of a house like this for years. A single Mom for so many years, she never dreamed it could happen. I got them some Candles from Target as a house warming gift! Target now has their own line of Yankee candles! I love the Blooming Jasmine! I just took a bath in their new whirlpool in the bathroom upstairs! Used some epsom salts that smelled so good! Used the jets and the water was steaming! FABULOUS!!! I'm relaxed, lotioned up ( ladies it's important!) I'm gona knitted more baby hats and watch Zookeeper! Not looking forward to going back to 8 inches of snow. I'll be back up in a few weeks I bet and We'll go up to the Twin Cities then. Too tired today to do anything. God bless!

Minne-soooooo-TA!!!!!

Ok so I'm sitting in Mary's in livingroom. No furniture yet. But we have the DirecTv guy installing 6 TV's. 4 Flats screens! The ovan is self cleaning and the fumes are making me dizzy! We met the previous owners. She's from Poland and a georgous stick figure! Mary had one of Andy's friends come over to meet me cuz she though we"d be a great pair. Ok now I'm 31 and will be 32 in a couple of Months, Derf ( Fred spelled backwards) is Andy's friend. He comes over and talks with a think Wisconsin accent which cracked me up. Well I'm not really excited about dating or meeting anyone right now. Derf is 48 and has a daughter. Flat out said he didn't want anymore. Seriously Mary, ya need to find out this info before deciding to introduce me to guys! KATE wants Babies if I even decided to go down the marriage path again. After all the failed attempts of dating and marriage I'm kaput! So unless he's truely a Man of God and wants what I want I'm not interested. No 48 year old wants to start a new family. She loves me dearly and I know if I do have babies she's their God Mother no doubt! She'll be in the freaking delievery room! So This house is amazing! 5 years old, 3006 sq feet! 5 bedroom, 3 bath! Ranch style big open livingroom with kitchen! The Master Bath and closet are to die for the the Bath downstairs tooks like a spa! Tonight We're going to look for a new kitch table and a sectional for the livingroom! I honestly am Jealous of this house and this neighborhood! It's Fabulous!!! I'm so thrilled for Mary cuz she never thought she would ever live in a house like this! Everything looks brand new. Granite counters in the kitchen! Oak cabinets and triming everywhere. I'm so glad I have weekend vacation spot now. Mary is definatly a Lifetime Friend. She's like my BFF Tammy in SLC. We don't have to talk constanly or see each other but when we do We start up where left off. Thats a good friendship! Mary has been a wonderful friend to me since we met at WFHM training. Well actually we didn't like each other in training but became friends after. So far this weekend has been busy. I've seen a lot of place and I love the area up here but dang it's cold out!!! I'm freezing and I never say that!! I'm not a fan of cold or being up North where it is cold. This are is beautiful but I prefer my Desert and dry heat down in Phoenix!!! I bet it's georgous up here during summers. I know Wisconsin was. I miss Wisconsin. I was a honoray Wisconsinite for 3 1/2 years. Well Thats it for today. Probably heading up to the Twin Cities tomorrow to do more shopping, show Mary the MOA and have dinner!! God Bless

This and That

I am simply exhausted. I think in life we have to go from one thing to another and it just takes it toll on each of us. I'm so exhausted and my body is feeling it. My Fibromyaligia is killing me. I woke up today and my sacrum is in so much pain. That would be the lower part of the spine. I hurt so bad right now. I usually don't complain and man I haven't had this kind of pain ever. I'm wearing a back pain reliever patch and it's barely working. I had to get up early to take some family to the airport and I had to rescheduled my interview to tomorrow. I need to pack for my trip tomorrow. I need to take a muscle relaxer when I get home. I'm job hunting and surfing the net. I just don't have too much to talk about. Just ready to have my interview tomorrow and head up to Minnesota tomorrow. Mary is gona try to set up with a Guy Friend of her Husband. Like I said... I am not interested in dating but I guess I can't get away from it. I have a crush on someone but I don't think he knows it or feels the same way. So I go on. Ah life it's aways turning and changing. Ok talk to you later, probably in Minnesota!