Valentine's Day!!

So another Valentine's Day is over. This year was a very good one. No I didn't have a Hot date. I had a great night with some wonderful Sisters In Christ! Susie Q, Rose, Debi and just met Kim. We had mexican and margarita's and went to see The Vow. Which was sadly a let down. Spoiler alert....... Most of the Movie Rachel McAdams charater is spoiled and rude. She reverts back to her former self whom her Husband had never met. We get a short glimps into their marriage and love story and it's a good one! But then there's the accident and she can't remember her husband and it's gut wrenching to watch him try to make her love him again when all she wants to do is live like it's 5 years ago before they met. They divorce and go seprate ways only for her to slow find her way back tp who she was in Chicago and back to him. The movie ends showing the real life couple and their 2 children. She never did get her memory back. For me personaly it just got to close to home for me. Especially the part of trying to get her to love him again and the divorce. Just was so too real for me. My 16 month marriage was of me trying to make him love me and the Old Jason to come back. The Jason I dated and the Jason I was married were two completely different people. I was so in love with the Jason I dated. I was swept off my feet in-love. Really mad crazy love. That guy was the Love of my life. I've been thinking about him a lot lately. Lots of different things have brought up memories. I still love Him.whether or not he was ever real I wont know but I know it was real for me. Commiting my self to Him. Loving Him. Just a shame the fair tale didn't last past the Honeymoon and then turned into a living nightmare. But now I try to remember the Love I had and the bad parts are fading. I'm just being content. I need to live in God's Will and trust. Maybe I will only get that one love in my life. Yes I've loved other Men but I'm talking about that Deep love that you can't wait to marry them and spend your life together. I may never find anyone else to love like that but I'm not going to give up my dream of Motherhood yet. Whether I adopted or be a Foster Mother and yes even if I falled and got pregnant out of wed lock I'd have the baby after what happened the last time. I can't see the future but I will keep hoping for Motherhood!